Post on November 30th, 2008
by fika
After postponing my thesis seminar for the event “Silaturahmi Nasional Beswan Djarum 2008/2009″ in Semarang, from 21st and came back on 26th of November 2008… I finally did my seminar… HOW WAS IT? My comment ………… (alexithymia)
I have no words, or nothing can verbally express how it was… basically, it went okay and I just had to adjust & add few things into the proposal. I really hope I can finish it by 4th of February 2009, coz thts the deadline… I gotta submit in order to graduate next March.. Otherwise, I gotta wait till August… 
now that i’m already half way through.. i should really get on with it… making history in Paramadina, being the first to make the thesis in English, and hopefully my cumlaude in 3,5 years… (which is rare in Psychology Parmad)
n the trip to Semarang? HOW WAS IT? Being in the place where my parents actually got to first meet and fell in love? lol… i had an amazing time.. got to have plenty of new friends.. more expriences to share!! soo much fun…Too bad we didnt exactly get the chance or time to wander around.. but the event itself was great, including “Kick Andy” talkshow, and also the trip to Kudus, for the Djarum Ciggarette factory visit, etc!
now im missing those moments.. and missing my new friends.. hope to see them again soon!! till then… gotta do my work, assignments, tasks… >.
X_x
BESWAN DJARUM RSO JAKARTA
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Post on November 10th, 2008
by fika
This entry is dedicated for my dearest friend,
Efrinika irma
17.02.1988 - 10.11.2008
Today,
i lost a good friend of mine…
Today,
i watched her being rested under ground….
in peace, she lies….
reminded us, life is short…
20 years old.. a really nice, beautiful, sweet, high spirited, funny, charming person…
Many memories, that we shared together…
one group pro-training 2005… shopping at melawai, met each other at the car showroom&bought the cars, “wisata kuliner” together…
the past three and a half years (the longest period i’ve ever been with the same circles of friends)… as far as i could remmbr, she has always been cheerful, cute and friendly…
To my dearest friend, evrinika irma indirawati (niqa)… All my prayers for you on this day and the days ahead.. May Allah forgive your mistakes, and your deeds be rewarded. Rest in peace my dearest friend…
i’m sorry for not being able to meet u while u were still here with us, i’m sorry we cant hang out again now, like we planned on doing this semester. i’m sorry for not calling u again after the holidays… but, i will always treasure the memories.. thanks for being a good friend!
the last msg on my phone from nika…
“dihaRi yG suci & fitri ini.. niQa & keluarga mengucapkan “miNal aidiN walfaizin” moh0n maAf lahiR & batin.. MaAfin sgala kesalahan yg sngja atau tdk disengja y”
… and …………. the last msg on facebook:
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maSaa seyh?! mang kaPan keKampusny?!
tp bntr lg kita jg brtmu dismesterr baruu..hehehhehh…
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sayaang,,,
tiap kali ku kkmps kok ga pernah ktmu sih…
gak jd wisata kuliner lg ni? hahaha
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we will miss u…
love u always!!
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Post on October 27th, 2008
by fika
i was suppose to be somewhere else today.. but i end up not going.
dunno… bit lazy perhaps.. but the thing is i need to finish up my chapter 2 thesis, my health psychology paper, study for the upcoming mid exams… 
anyway, jus wanna post the alexithymia online questionnaire for those who (maybe) wanna see how alexithymic they are.. since it is after all a trait– which anyone may have.. apprntly i scored 109 = possible alexithymia hahaha.. (not surprised)
for more info on the questionnaire see the following link:
http://oaq.blogspot.com/
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Post on September 23rd, 2008
by fika
“that’s freaky…”
i’m CANCER (,”) [29th June 1987] — so is my other half (”,) hihihi..
The Bottom Line
Why hide what you have to offer the world? Being shy is cute, but it’s ineffectual.
In Detail
Why hide what you have to offer from others? Being shy and coy can be cute, but these aren’t effective tactics for showing the world what you can offer — especially if you are looking to create a romantic connection. So today, you need to take a bigger risk — reveal your inner thoughts and ideas and you won’t be disappointed. You are a lot more intriguing than you realize. Providing a clue towards solving the mystery will attract a lot of people to you.
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it’s not about being shy and coy, or cute… it’s a matter of principles, habits and Manners.. but in the end, i am revealing what i am, n so this is me for every1 to see (,”)
anywhooo.. dig in ladies, no skeletons in ma’ the closet thats fo’ sho’ ;p
note to self: there’s nothing to be afraid of, and i am more intriguing than i realize… ??? hahaha…
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Post on September 22nd, 2008
by fika
The Bottom Line
Time is weighing heavily on your mind, today, but try not to worry about the future.
In Detail
Time is weighing a bit heavily on your mind, today, and all of your clockwatching could prove distracting. Deadlines, expiration dates and looming appointments don’t have to steer you off track, though — just set your alarm an hour earlier. Try to live in the moment. Don’t worry about what’s coming up in the next hour, day or week. You do have all the time you need, but you’ll have even more of it if you stop wasting the moment on being preoccupied with the future!
u may not always belief in horoscopes.. however, when it comes to thinks which really remind u of sumthin.. then u take notice..
talking bout deadlines X_x ….when i was about to actually do my work today, just so happens fate took me to a different place…
Mr. Wija (my deputy rector) called me early in the morning to inform me if i would take the honor to represent the university to go to Hotel Borobudur to read the “modernisator manifesto” (see: www.modernisator.org )
n so i said yes…
big event, with Dr. Dino Pati Djalal (presidential spokesman )… the guest list was ambassadors from foreign countries (more or less 10 ambassadors), people from many high positions, intellectuals, n … i was the only student there… aside from a 10 yr old girl that came as guest.. hehe
i was nervous at first, but alhamdulillah 
everything went okay (i suppose), i did not get that nervous..
it was quite an exprience for me
hopefully open up more doors for me… amin.
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skripsi ku.. ketunda lagi dirimu…. ku ingin menyelesaikan dirimuu.. hiks..
so, in this opportunity, i wanna wish my classmates GOOD LUCK ALL on the theses..
take care!
cheers
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Post on September 10th, 2008
by fika
about nearly a month ago.. when i had the idea of doin alexithymia fr my thesis.. i came across many journals tht aroused many questions n since there rnt any alexithymia experts tht i know of (not even my lecturers heard of it) so.. i emailed Graeme J. Taylor Ph.D.. one of the authors and researcher of alexithymia theory… creator of TAS-20 (Toronto Alexithymic Scale - 20 items) which is the main self-report test for measuring alexithymia… anyway, he replied n was helpful in answering my silly dumb questions.. 
then, i came across another journal tht xplaind different findings n results, few results were inconsistent from one another… hence, again i emaild one of th researchers and askd,, n she replied aswell as she had offered to send me her articles n askd fr my address…
this afternoon, as i was preparing myself to leave to campus… my sister came in my room n handed me th white envelope.. n she said it was frm finland…
woaa.. after a month it finally made its way here to jakarta… thx Kirsi Honkalampi Ph.D for sending her elaborative articles n researches… as i came to know she is one of the main researcher n contributer of alexithymia theory n its link to depression…n jus ystrday i decided not to do my research based on depression.. but her articles will also b a reference fr my thesis…
SEMANGATT!!!
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Post on September 8th, 2008
by fika
Change… the word i’ve been hearing a lot since yesterday… from conversations, movies, quotes, preachers and so on..
anyway, i believe in changes.. to turn into sumthin a lot better..
apparently today, i figured i need to change the title of my thesis.. and also to change the whole thing! lol… it happend after i met my subject, which was suggested by a psychiatrist in a certain hospital.. they diagnosed her MDD (major depressive disorder).. turned out, she was actually having Panic Disorder (PD) which was totally different frm wat i was lookin fr.. othr thn tht, she was absolutly aware of her emotions n was able to describe it.. even if she was alexithymic, i think it wud b back when she was more troubled.. she seemed fine.. altho she did show symptoms of panic attacks during our session..
therefore, with an invalid rspondence.. an a method which i wsnt feeling so strongly about about… i changed the whole thang.. ;p
but i think it’s really for the best.. coz it is th way i wanted it to be from the beginning… using quantitative descriptive to describe the alexithymia trait among nurses in a certain hospital.. sumthin me n my lecturer discussed bfre.. sighh…, hopefully things will go easy on me in the future..
ouu… n im gonna b writing it in english.. lol.. finally the univesity supports me on tht.. she offered if i was still up fr it.. n hell yea, i am…. need all the luck n the prayers.. (who ever u r my friend, if u r reading this.. remmbr to pray fr me ;p )
peace, tc peeps
xoxo
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Post on August 18th, 2008
by fika
The Bottom Line
You can’t search for a new philosophy — you must create one by trying new things.
In Detail
You can’t search for a ready-made new philosophy on life — you have
to create one, by exposing yourself to new ideas and theories. If you
have been wrestling with a certain issue and just can’t shake the bad
way it’s making you feel, seek some insight from friends. Ask them how
they would handle things, and their answers will help you shape your
own attitudes. What’s right for them might not be right for you, but at
least you’re seeing different points of view. And that will be helpful.
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this morning while waiting fr the break of dawn.. i wrote down few things, points in life… xpiriences tht people might find sumthin in common.. however, when it came down to the last paragraph it was more bout myself n how i tend to deal things… (now i dnt feel like posting th story here, lol)
anyway, frm the horoscope’s point of view… i always do ask friends’ opinions and share stories… i do find em quite helpful n in a way, n id sumtimes try to consider wat others did n maybe bend few things here n there to make it work my way…
dont we all do tht tho?
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Post on August 15th, 2008
by fika
i might hav have to go thru n face all sorts of difficulties ahead..
i am never really careful n plan things, although when i do set my mind
onto sumthin, i do always try my best in order to achieve what i
deserve all along..
i am preparing myself for the battle, which in the end, i hope would serve me the satisfaction tht i needed.. aswell as the reward fr all the trouble..
im gona learn frm the steps tht i will b making and try to apply it in the future..
who knows wat i will be n how things will turn out later..
but fr now im living to the fullest n working my hardest
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Post on August 12th, 2008
by fika
aah… again… this thing is getting freaky.. believe or not, its kinda true.. n it is also quite encouraging.. hehe.. basically, i shud jus go ahead n try hard enough and work on my qualitative method thesis.. which is wat i fear everyday now.. am i able to finish in time with good results… *again wish me luck!*
The Bottom Line
Instead of projecting what you fear onto a situation, project what you want, today.
In Detail
There are a lot of things up in the air in your life, right now, but
that doesn’t need to make you feel nervous. Try to see this uncertainty
as an opportunity – you can make things go the way you want if you try
hard enough. If you want to make a change, you can make it. Instead of
projecting what you fear onto the situation, project what you want out
of the situation. You will be surprised at how a little bit of positive
thinking will turn the tide and make things fall into place.
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